Pudgy

Holy Moly... I feel like my life is finally slowing down. Just in time to go back to school!

The last month has been jam packed with so many fun things! So many parties! So many dinners! So many drinks! So many food things! So many funs! So many laughs!

AND

So many calories! So many chemicals!

It was all worth it! All of it! I regret none of it!

BUT

Now, I feel pudgy. So pudgy.

This isn't where you say, "Stefani, you look great!"

A. That's a lie.

B. I don't care how I look, I care how I FEEL! And, I feel pudgy.

My brother said pudgy is a bad word. I think it's a perfect word. I don't feel "fat" I just feel pudgy...

Anyways, for the next 2.5 weeks I fully intend on getting my game face on.

Lost of shakes and even going to attempt a 48 hour cleanse.

Cleansing is hard, but I will admit that the one time I pulled it off I felt better. I just need to make sure I put my game face on when I do it. The more entertainment I have the better. I have a lot of cleaning and projects to do around the house, so that should help. I'm pretty desperate to get the shit out of my system.

THEN, in 2.5 weeks I'm going to party my face off for the big 26 birthday!

Whoop! Whoop!

Not nearly as cool as the 25th Golden Birthday on a Saturday combo of last year, but still pretty exciting.

Then back on the wagon after that!

At least until someone else has some other reason to totally indulge and celebrate. In fact, if all the people I love could just stop having those events for a few months I'd appreciate it. I have to miss out on a lot because of school and I should control myself during others. BUT my New Year's resolution is to not do things because I "should" so controlling myself would totally be breaking that. Obviously.

Actually, this pudgy feeling has made me a bit insecure. I haven't felt insecure about my body in a long time. Not fun.

I actually had this thought when going to the hotel gym, "Man, I hope they don't all think I'm just a 'Resolution-er!'" Then I got pissed at myself and the world.

Who the hell cares if they think I'm a 'Resolution-er'? And why the hell have I ever been lead to believe it is a bad thing?

The truth is, that ever fit person you see in the gym has only "Started Again" one more time than they "Quit."

Chew on that for a second.

If I had a dollar for every time I started and quit then I'd be so rich!

So, what harm is a resolution-er doing? Maybe this is their year! Maybe this is the year they stick with it!

And if they don't...

There's always next year!

I think that we should be encouraging people to be healthy and treat themselves right! Not being ass holes and throwing a fit because we don't get our equipment as quick as we want to!

One thing about Crossfit, is that there are always opportunities to make people feel welcome and encourage them. Though I know that sometimes traditional gyms are a little different, I hope people take time to smile to the new-bees. Maybe help them out when they look at equipment like , "WTF?"

Maybe your happy face will be enough to encourage them to keep going!

You should know that I actually haven't seen much of this jerk-ness this year, but I have in year pasts. It seems that people are getting nicer and more understanding. OR I only have nice friends. Either/Or I'm winning! BUT still, I know the shaming of Resolution-ers happens, and it's crap.

That was quite the progression of a blog post...

Moral of the story... I'm don't want to feel pudgy anymore and I'm going to do something about it AND I hope others decide to make a change for the better too.



Peace Out Girl Scouts!
(Oh, maybe some Boy Scouts, too. And possibly just some people who were never Scouts. Like me. I was never a Scout.)

Stef